Saturday 28 June 2008

Love letters

Notice here 'Love like it never felt dying'.

Three times these words have come.

Any idea what they mean?

I have none.

Love letters

Notice here 'Love like it never felt dying'.

Three times these words have come.

Any idea what they mean?

I have none.

Lack of sleep

Taken to a certain stillpoint

Beyond the Moon's cross dressing

Bacolite-covered

Mountain-mouthed

In finite streaks flourescing

Covered to make a mark

Wander past the rush

Further down amassing

Uncovered: bless agush

Surrender-pummelled free and new

Babe sinks sullen bleeding

Vomit-express long-shouldered tears

Glassy famished

Stricken thumb

Lack of sleep

Taken to a certain stillpoint

Beyond the Moon's cross dressing

Bacolite-covered

Mountain-mouthed

In finite streaks flourescing

Covered to make a mark

Wander past the rush

Further down amassing

Uncovered: bless agush

Surrender-pummelled free and new

Babe sinks sullen bleeding

Vomit-express long-shouldered tears

Glassy famished

Stricken thumb

Friday 27 June 2008

Yes Nein

I can see it in her.

In hazel eyes a desire to make it ok.

A strangling desire.

Mirroring mine.

Words come clipped and tense

For two days we broke upon eachother. Fearing, hoping that before us lay something we'd dreamt of since ancient times. To be this close, to delight in eachother's every move, whisper, gesture, caress. Fantasies they've made of this but nothing to touch our simple ecstasy.

The waters hold all flowing motion between us and we bathe deep.

To drown and realise we never needed air.

Though fearing hope commands that what we thought was not possible

is not.

On surfacing you accomodate me less. Grasp too far to hold me but in getting away you only reach more.

I despise you. Am I a saviour from your morning boredom? From your fear that the waters won't let us breathe?

We're now I and you.

No longer one

and the desert descends.

I gave fully and now your arms tell me it's not enough. They clutch. Threaten.

Your confusion reflects and you believe I don't love you. That before was an act to seduce, a billowing of fantasy? What can I do before these pincers but shut? Walk away, love you from a distance. You strike me deep and make me responsible for a past I cannot change.

And so loving you, I leave.

I should have been stronger. Allowed you to cling, drenched you more or pushed you firmly rather than lie silent, withered by pity and a fear not to hurt. Held back by a feeling of being cheated by your own lack of faith. I could have let that go.

This great swarm of Man's play and our little story has such little effect. But for this little man, he grieves and forgives. Turns lion's heart to the next abundant showing.

You challenged me and I love you. Grateful for the lesson that there's no longer a choice to speak less than truth, let clarity shine. But I was not clear, so we suffered.

There cannot be any blame in this. I love you and see, as you do, that it is not our time.

Resolution marks the fearful man's prayer. So I'll keep myself open but knowing that closing is easier for both of us to bear.

Love, like it never felt like dying,

S

Yes Nein

I can see it in her.

In hazel eyes a desire to make it ok.

A strangling desire.

Mirroring mine.

Words come clipped and tense

For two days we broke upon eachother. Fearing, hoping that before us lay something we'd dreamt of since ancient times. To be this close, to delight in eachother's every move, whisper, gesture, caress. Fantasies they've made of this but nothing to touch our simple ecstasy.

The waters hold all flowing motion between us and we bathe deep.

To drown and realise we never needed air.

Though fearing hope commands that what we thought was not possible

is not.

On surfacing you accomodate me less. Grasp too far to hold me but in getting away you only reach more.

I despise you. Am I a saviour from your morning boredom? From your fear that the waters won't let us breathe?

We're now I and you.

No longer one

and the desert descends.

I gave fully and now your arms tell me it's not enough. They clutch. Threaten.

Your confusion reflects and you believe I don't love you. That before was an act to seduce, a billowing of fantasy? What can I do before these pincers but shut? Walk away, love you from a distance. You strike me deep and make me responsible for a past I cannot change.

And so loving you, I leave.

I should have been stronger. Allowed you to cling, drenched you more or pushed you firmly rather than lie silent, withered by pity and a fear not to hurt. Held back by a feeling of being cheated by your own lack of faith. I could have let that go.

This great swarm of Man's play and our little story has such little effect. But for this little man, he grieves and forgives. Turns lion's heart to the next abundant showing.

You challenged me and I love you. Grateful for the lesson that there's no longer a choice to speak less than truth, let clarity shine. But I was not clear, so we suffered.

There cannot be any blame in this. I love you and see, as you do, that it is not our time.

Resolution marks the fearful man's prayer. So I'll keep myself open but knowing that closing is easier for both of us to bear.

Love, like it never felt like dying,

S

Monday 23 June 2008

Blue winter fades in you

Blue winter fades in you, my love

Rise Spring’s awakening

Shell-flesh cracks expose

Raw gold, shining blunt and new

Crest love’s restless anger

To dissolve on you replete

Uncanny washed and silent

Fester no more but serenely break me

Lost and encompassing

Love’s ungainly promises i’ll forgo for you

Rest blemished

Erode feet

Lushful

Ignorant

Levelless

Free

Blue winter fades in you

Blue winter fades in you, my love

Rise Spring’s awakening

Shell-flesh cracks expose

Raw gold, shining blunt and new

Crest love’s restless anger

To dissolve on you replete

Uncanny washed and silent

Fester no more but serenely break me

Lost and encompassing

Love’s ungainly promises i’ll forgo for you

Rest blemished

Erode feet

Lushful

Ignorant

Levelless

Free

Monday 2 June 2008

Politics, Marketing, Sport

To make a freedom mound you need several belches of the common man
Twist them in a scrawl and brawl them before the masses
Pretend this makes them worthy
Meld them in your secret
Make them special
Burden them with petty necessaries

Measure them up to civilisation's spontaneous decay
Once measured, beyond them with worries of flagging
Become a righteous priest of nagging compost
Your fragrance a beacon for the unworthy to fall back on
A poop-scoop can metaphor-mixed vulture
Feeding on carcasses five days rotten in gluttony

Feel proud as this jams before you
As ship descends
Salvage none of it
Though it takes you too
Shitted up Burma-fed worm

Politics, Marketing, Sport

To make a freedom mound you need several belches of the common man
Twist them in a scrawl and brawl them before the masses
Pretend this makes them worthy
Meld them in your secret
Make them special
Burden them with petty necessaries

Measure them up to civilisation's spontaneous decay
Once measured, beyond them with worries of flagging
Become a righteous priest of nagging compost
Your fragrance a beacon for the unworthy to fall back on
A poop-scoop can metaphor-mixed vulture
Feeding on carcasses five days rotten in gluttony

Feel proud as this jams before you
As ship descends
Salvage none of it
Though it takes you too
Shitted up Burma-fed worm

The 53rd Post

It's the 53rd post!

Here are my favourites (today) :

Tyninghame

Nina Simone

Headswim

Zuza

A character emerges

The 53rd Post

It's the 53rd post!

Here are my favourites (today) :

Tyninghame

Nina Simone

Headswim

Zuza

A character emerges

Seriously

Masking sunscreant

Mischief mouths

Buddha days

Mescaline furrows

Christ’s delays

Bent tomorrows

Furnisher performs

Grown tooth and sweaty

Enlarge crossover

Bowden chemis’ry

Masks the mention

Fern off moisten

Spring to sharkle

Meant of clension

Fenarran off

To sparkspfer madle

Carraddon ingot

Meant of mable

Marksion mounting

Wins be able

Seriously

Masking sunscreant

Mischief mouths

Buddha days

Mescaline furrows

Christ’s delays

Bent tomorrows

Furnisher performs

Grown tooth and sweaty

Enlarge crossover

Bowden chemis’ry

Masks the mention

Fern off moisten

Spring to sharkle

Meant of clension

Fenarran off

To sparkspfer madle

Carraddon ingot

Meant of mable

Marksion mounting

Wins be able